I am most put out with my body at the moment.
Have I ever mentioned that my body can go into starvation mode if it even thinks
I might be trying to shed some of its rainy day fund? Well, it does.
One of the reasons why I've just kinda said screw the weight loss effort for so long is that I have spent so much of my life obsessing over my weight. I do this diet, I lose weight. I plateau, I gain it back. I try that pill, I lose weight, I plateau, I gain it back. Rinse and repeat. No one ever took the time to talk to me about nutrition, oh no. People were too busy criticizing every bite I took, while at the same time complaining that I wasn't cleaning my plate or insisting that I have a piece of cake while I was visiting. My body is really, really confused about how it is supposed to react to food, drink, exercise, and the combination of the three.
Which is why I'm not surprised to see just a .4lb loss this week. Let me rephrase- I am surprised, and yet, I am not. I've felt really good this week (up until Friday, anyway), I've been doing my exercise everyday, and I can feel
the difference. My legs and abs felt firmer, and I've had more energy. I expected at least a pound loss, and to not see that, well, it frankly pissed me off. I know why
the loss is so little, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm pissed. I'm pissed that a snowball effect of food choices from Friday and Saturday quite probably negated a chunk of what I'd done through the week. Because I had two very high calorie, high fat meals, and my body went "Ooooooo, calories. *store store store*" instead of flushing them.
And yeah, I'm taking the blame for those choices, trust me. I ate the food while very awake and aware.
BUT! I am redeemed, sorta. I'm only doing my measurements every two weeks. So after I weighed in today, I got out the tape measure. I have lost a total of seven inches.Seven inches!
For the interested, here's how my stats look after three weeks:
Chest Waist Hips Thigh Wrist Ankle Upper Arm
1/3/2010 50" 45" 53" 30" 6" 9" 20"
1/24/2010 49" 44" 52.5" 29" 6" 8.5" 17" ( Read more... )