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Weird headspace is weird...
Sep. 21st, 2020 06:01 pm..and recycled header is recycled.
I actually opened this window and typed the header like, three hours ago. I just... brain went sideways, my OCD kicked in, and I had to finish out the fucking event in WU. It ends at noon tomorrow. I had gone out earlier today, and spent some quiet time, doing it, but I didn't finish. OCD would not let me just not finish. I'm still salty about the two past events I apparently missed finishing, even though I thought they were done.
Aside: Yes, I know. HP is a complicated topic right. However, in this case, it's a free game. The thought of dropping it cold make my OCD anxiety freak, because it's one of my anxiety soothers. And yes, I know, I'm rationalizing. There is no ethical consumption under capitalism, yadda yadda yadda, I will make a more in-depth HP related post later.
Getting out for a bit was great. I enjoyed being out in the breeze (even if all I did was sit in the car), and just vibing while playing my game.
It was when I got home that my mood just tanked the fuck out.
I honestly think it was the food. I got a chicken sandwich and sweet tea for lunch, and snagged a chocolate treat as well. I think it was primarily the candy. I think it tossed my BS too far up, and then I crashed, and my mood crashed with it. I also didn't get much sleep last night.
I'm going to work on some Flyover stuff here in a few.
I actually opened this window and typed the header like, three hours ago. I just... brain went sideways, my OCD kicked in, and I had to finish out the fucking event in WU. It ends at noon tomorrow. I had gone out earlier today, and spent some quiet time, doing it, but I didn't finish. OCD would not let me just not finish. I'm still salty about the two past events I apparently missed finishing, even though I thought they were done.
Aside: Yes, I know. HP is a complicated topic right. However, in this case, it's a free game. The thought of dropping it cold make my OCD anxiety freak, because it's one of my anxiety soothers. And yes, I know, I'm rationalizing. There is no ethical consumption under capitalism, yadda yadda yadda, I will make a more in-depth HP related post later.
Getting out for a bit was great. I enjoyed being out in the breeze (even if all I did was sit in the car), and just vibing while playing my game.
It was when I got home that my mood just tanked the fuck out.
I honestly think it was the food. I got a chicken sandwich and sweet tea for lunch, and snagged a chocolate treat as well. I think it was primarily the candy. I think it tossed my BS too far up, and then I crashed, and my mood crashed with it. I also didn't get much sleep last night.
I'm going to work on some Flyover stuff here in a few.
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