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I've just been busy, very busy and am attempting to impose some sort of order in my rather chaotic life. Which means I am forcing myself to catch-up on a lot of household/ business stuff that has been languishing for quite some time. As it is, I'm not making a super long post right now. Just explaining something for those who might actually be reading. The whole meme-like Peter Pan routine I've been doing since the first? It actually has a purpose besides cluttering your friends list and being smarmy.

You see, I realized a while back, while mulling over the mess that has been the past year, that we have a tendency to dwell on/rant about/cling to all the shite that happens to us. Yes, "we" and "us". It's not just me; I see this in almost everyone I know. And well, I don't like it. Because while it is possible for the Bad to outweigh the Good during any given stretch of time, there is still Good mixed in there somewhere. I thought that, just maybe, if I can make myself remember five things that made me happy during the course of a 24 hour period, as opposed to listing the things that upset me.... It's a bit silly, I know. But this week, even though yeah, I have ranted a bit to people here and there, I've slept better and I feel less stressed. I tried to make the post as close to the end of my "day" as possible, and then re-read it right before crashing.

My goal is to do this every day for the entire year. Yes, some things will be repeated often; as long as said thing made me happy, even for just a minute. Perhaps, if I can do this, I will start looking for more things to make me happy each day, and consequently spend less of the day in a blue funk. It's a bit of cyclic magic in a way: getting back what you put out there and all that rote. But it just makes me feel better, and that's the whole point.

I debated on making the daily lists private, but decided why? Maybe something that made me smile will make you smile too? Maybe you'll share a silly and inconsequential thing that made you happy with me, and that will in turn make me happy, and go on the next day's list. A little positive energy never hurt anyone.

There may be times when I forget to actually post on the day, but I will always back date the entry the next day (like I did today). And ya know...there may be days when I can't come up with 5 things, because the day just sucked that much. In those cases, I'll put up as many as I can think of. But there will be an entry for ever day in 2008.

So that's it folks. Feel free to skip/ignore the posts all you like. But if something did make you happy, even for a bit...I'd love to hear about it in the comments.
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Identify the souce of the quote in the subject line!!!!!!!!!!!!  EVERYONE on my friends list I feel should be able to do this!!!!! (even if I''m not sure I've directly quoted:)

Icy, sleety snowy....wouldn't be near so bad if people here knew how to drive in it.  Of course, I asked for it, now didn't I.......?

I feel good.  The store is in total chaos, things are moving at impossible speeds toward a destination I know not, but I feel good.  I had a very moving, very emotional private Yule rite last night, and slept well and sound for the first time in weeks.  I have come to grips w/ the fact that I can not move the mountain (no matter how much I want to), but I can build a path around it.

This was supposed to be a dream job, for me and for others.  A chance to shine.  A chance to create success from something I felt passionately about.  But dreams fade and lights die.  But I can't say that it was all for the worst.  Anything that promtes individual growth, no matter how painful, is always a good thing.

I've glimpsed the edges of what the Fates have in store for me and mine.  Not an easy time, but one that will ultimately lead to growth iin all areas for us both.  I just need to take that step- one big scary leap of faith.  But I also know that I can't take that step without tying up a few lose ends.  It is possible for me to go against my nature, but not quite that much.  After all, I'm a Weaver; I can't just leave dangling threads hanging around, now can I?

No more negativity; I may have to work in it, but I don't have to let it leech off me.  And I don't have to accept it.

 

 

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