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Well, as those who've seen me recently can attest, I made it through the stomach bug without dying. My tummy is still a bit picky about what I can put in it, as the marathon vomiting really damaged my insides (it's now been two weeks since the virus onset; Pray to ALL the gods that you don't get that virus!)

I am very glad that I let draconisferret convince me to attend FOS this year. I've had people invite me before, but the fact that I've been soliatry for so long, coupled w/ a pretty bad case of claustrophobia, has kept me from doing so. The meetings at Mama Dragon's have helped pull me out of my shell a bit, but I'm still a pretty closed off individual. There were several times during the weekend that I had that "outside looking in" feeling, but I know that most of that was because of my walls and I there were times when I know I was giving off the "leave me be" vibe. Honestly, the fact that I was able to make the tenuous connections w/ the few people I did amazed me. Thanks to dyinginwinter , nair_al_saif_ , lunarastar22, and of course draconisferret (and Jay) for keeping me from hiding the whole weekend. There were others (like Mama Dragon, herself), of course, but if they have LJ's, I don't know them. So here's a general thank you to those people.

The weekend started off w/ Jay "voluntering" me to call a quarter at opening rit. Blegh! Stage Fright!! Since I've been solitary for so long I'm big into "Macross Magic", ie the formula is in my head, click the right "button", poof! Circle is cast, quarters represented everybody happy, H-A-P-P-Y. Not that formal rit doesn't have it's place, I'm just not programmed that way. When I DO go formal, it's an all out humdinger of an occasion. But I managed through it, /wo stumbling badly. Called water, dismissed water, apparently didn't piss off anybody 'cause it waited till today to rain cats and dogs. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Slept like poopie Thurs night. Discovered the Fri morning that while we did have nice hot water for showers, only 1 of the 3 bathroom heaters were working so you still froze your ass off. Nitia was damned and determined that we were going to have this particula tent to cover our dealers table (yes, I'm poking fun at you dear; deal w/ it. LOL), so off we went to Wally-World and to pick up some stuffs for the kitchen (natch, not everything made it there that was needed for cooking the nummies). After an interesting couple of bad turns, we failed in the tent mission, succeeded in the kitchen mission, and I found a cool, soft stuffed Halloween kitty. And even made it back to camp before lunch. As far as our joint selling endeavor went, we didn't do to well. I think Nitia did better selling old VHS tapes than anything else, LOL. It was successful in that I ran into someone who I haven't seen in years, (Emmy, Call Me, this is a certain Irish nurse that you asked me about the other day,a nd she wants to meet up w/ both of us!) and we exchanged contact info. She has a website and offered to put some of my stuff on for sell when her shopping cart opens up in a few months. I got to meet her fiance' and we talked about her 2 munchkins abit.

I was interested in the Ancestor Ritual that evening, but planned to just observe, not actually participate. But the emotion was so strong, I was pulled in. Literally. The lady walked around the circle, pointing to people that wished to honor an ancestor. I was OUTSIDE the circle, and she still stopped in front of me, pulling me in. It was rough. I miss my mom. I was a mess for the rest of the night, so much so that I skipped the Labyrinth, and actually went to bed w/ the covers over my head. Before hibernating, I did do the journey w/ annie, which actually wore my ass out even more. But I needed it. It made me realize several things that I need to address in my life. It was both comforting and upseting to me when people would come up to me out of the blue during the rest of the weekend and give me a hug and tell me they were crying with me....

OK, enough on that subject....

I slept like the dead that night, and woke up w/ a nasty-ass headache and feeling like I'd been beaten w/ a baseball bat. Nitia and I moved our table over w/ Cedarwoman's since she was in. Nitia had managed to mess up her eyeball somehow, so I stayed w/ the table for the morning while she was recuperating. I did get to sit in on what was supposed to be a workshop on Unconsious Magic, but was really just a VERY funny, VERY LONG story. No biggie, I was entertained. I took many pics of Realm graduation for Nitia, Leif and Jen, hit her up for copies. Am planning on trying to do the 1st realm class coming up. Have to talk to mama dragon

The drummers were really into it before main rit, which REALLY helped me get charged up. I'm a savage at heart, I know. Drums speak to my essence.

Main rit was for me very cool, though a bit convoluted. Point: It is very hard to keep people chanting on the same beat if they aren't chanting above a whisper, esp w/ that many people. You wind up w/ half the circle on one line w/ the other half on the other line. But it would ineveitably come together. The Staff that Laurie was presented w/ was absolutely awsome. Lots of power, and I noticed several people seemed to have trouble grounding afterwards. Then we got to EAT!!!!!!! And listen to Sooj(sp?), Yeah!

Leif had brought all his tarot decks w/ him because he wanted to practice. I took him up on the offer. Having sat in on a couple of readings at the beginning of the weekend, I was able to tell that he was really improving quickly. He gave me a rather spot on reading, and as soon as he gets used to trusting his instincts more than the book, he'll really be on his way. I returned the favor, w/ my Dali deck, as that was the only one I'd brought w/ me (because Leif wanted to see it). I'd forgotten how loud those cards can be. Intense doesn't do it justice. Wound up sitting up w/ the crew till about 3am, then HAD to go sleepy-bye. Even jay and nitia went to sleep before me.

Did not want to get up Sunday. Did not want to leave Sunday. 'Nuff said

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"I took many pics of Realm graduation for Nitia, Leif and Jen, hit her up for copies."

Hit who up for copies? You mentioned two 'her's there dear.

"He gave me a rather spot on reading, and as soon as he gets used to trusting his instincts more than the book, he'll really be on his way. "

Thank you thank you thank you!! I still think I need to learn the book meanings of all the cards. Did you see the reading I did for Mama Dragon with the Mage deck? I totally followed my intuition on the 2 of cups... it didn't turn out too well. Mama Dragon got me to look in the book and it changed the reading completely. It made more sense the way she interpreted it. But then, she knew the question so she had better insight.

It is on my camera

Schmmigida-SMACK!

consider yourself hit up. :P

I kinda watched that reading, but since it was not for me I tried not to intrude. Was the 2 of cups in that deck the pretty chick/mummy chick card? I remember that there was some controversy about that one... If so, the actual picture could have lead to the misconception that I recall-the whole passing of time thing. Or was it the card to the left of center?

Part of what I noticed about your reading style is that you tend to look at the cards individually more and make judgements on each card, /wo always looking at how each card affects the other. A card in the past position can often totally change the way the outcome position should be read. For example, you did a reading for a gentleman after I did the one for you. In that reading several cards indicated issues w/ his living situation and his mom who seemed (according to the cards) to be fairly overbearing and controlling (I was very impressed that you picked up on the "living at home" bit right off, BTW). The Ace of Cups was in the Hope/Fear postion, which usually is interperted as wishing for an emotional windfall, often love. He asked for clarification and you pulled the Hierophant. The Hierophant is often interperted as a priest and holder of knowledge. But it can also be intereperted as representing an individual who is powerful and influential emotionally and spiratualy in a person's life (think Catholic Priest; remember the medivial influences in the Ryder-Waite style decks). I can't remember the exact card but the card below the H/F position was representing his mom. The card can then be interperted as wishing for emotional freedom from his burden (caring for his mother-none of his siblings will aid him, but because of his sense of duty he can't wrench himeself free from the situation, hence the oposing paths represented in the Chariot-the outcome card)

Gahh, that was long.....I'm suprised I remembered so much. More and more things are happening to push me back into the Path of the Seer. Including all the Weaver imagery I've been seeing.

I am glad that you went and I am GLAD that you enjoyed it. YOU DID VERY well for opening rit. Me and jay would have not suggested it otherwise.

As far as the ancestor rit I was honored... !!!HONORED YOU HEAR!!! to be there for you. I just wished I could have been with you ALOT more during the festivities. I am BAD HOSTESS. Of coarse the kitchen had me busy... I think I will take on a different job next yr.

I am glad my eyeball is feelin better!!!!

Not a bad hostess!!!!! You weren't there to be my baby sitter:)! I amused my self well enough.

It's good to hear that you are considering First Realm, during the grad rit, I was talking Monica into going to it. I'm going myself, to start over since I believe that I really didn't get what I wanted out of the First Realm just past. It'll be nice to have people in the group that will/can get along with each other. Alternative Mysteries was pretty nice. I think I'm going to keep going to that, though I have never gone to one of the women's ones before. Though there is a blandly funny story of how I almost ended up in men's last year.

Good to know you had a good time out there.

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HIT ME UP FOR COPIES

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IM SO HAPPY

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